GMAT

i got married with mike but i am not happy, not at all. not even a little bit. i am bored at home, wait for the chance to get a interview, a phonecall, a email, a job offer. i asked him to ask his mom to co-sponsor me. I am not sure whether it's a good thing to do. i dont like this marriage. not at all. we stop listening to each other for a long time, except sex, everything sucks. we both agree with that, I was joking, but today it is the truth. I cannot say that i dont love him anymore and want to leave him. I still love him but I also want to runaway, madly want it.
it's just because we are so poor, there are barely nothing we can change this situation. I got 2000 bucks from mom and told her I am gonna to use it for a vacation, but I know it is not true. I have to save it for much more important thing, the GC application fee.

I decide to work on GMAT to distract myself a little bit. Now I am counting the days to make myself feel better, I dont know whom I should talk to in reference to this issue. I dont know how to solve it. I probably will never know.