我无法改变你的想法，也控制不了你的神经。我只知道我想做什么，作决定的一刻是认真的。我无法控制将来，也只能面对现在。如果你有顾虑，请告诉我，让我的生活变得简单。我会为此表示感激，并开心的离去。因为毕竟在某个瞬间，我拥有过无数的开心。

点上一柱香。我知道这是卖可最喜欢的味道。眼泪不经意刷地就流了下来。外面有钱人在开party,请了摇滚的乐队，刚好唱的是激情而伤感的歌。分手，离婚。这也许是我们必须经过的过程，是我们不可避免的成长阶梯。

it's been three years since the last blog here. Obviously, I survived in America and got my first job offer in that little town where we were married in 2008. Now I made my way to Chicago, the favorite town of mine in the entire USA by the end of 2007. Though, I have never been to San Fransisco, where most Asian people reside, I might just be bias. That's alright, another excuse to change my mind in the future.

we had concurred all those minor things in the life, but my dear hubby and I didn't crack everything difficulties in our life. Our marriage is heading toward the end, by now, we have been separated for eight months. He has earned his DMA and is developing a fair gig scene in Seattle. Not that I hate the Seattle, I actually love it, but I do love my dear job here in Chicago now. It offers me so much that I would rather stay and have fun here.

The old me is coming back, I am taking chance to enjoy the short summer here and had chance to travel overseas on business. I started to read books, which haven't happen in the last three years during our marriage. Indeed, I have suffered, from the marriage, especially this unpredictable breaking up. I have realized myself a lot, and we have grown up together. But the pain just won't go away, the fact is shouting loudly enough that I cannot bear imperfection.